My Soliloquy

I am a wonderful person who is being asked and prayed for by someone fom God. I will make someone happy who in return will make me happy. Once I find the one who gives me love, respect, and attention I need, I will realize that YOU do not have a place in my heart as I thought you had. I believe that I deserve someone better and that I should not give my love away so easily especially to someone so undeserving. This time I will have to come first. All my feelings are valid. If I am hurt, then damn I am hurt!!! I do not need to find the right to be hurt before I can express I am hurt. Feelings are feelings and by contemplating whether I have the right to feel something is an injustice to myself. Why do I need validations for my feelings?!? No!!! I should never ever do this unto myself. I am a person whose feelings are as valid as anyone else's. I will not let anyone walk over me...most especially myself. I will get up in my own time. This time I will not shortchange myself...I will write another love story...the next time would be for real, when I am ready. For now I will take care and I will be strong for myself. I know it won't be easy but neither is it impossible.

A Leap Into the Unknown

A friend of mine got engaged recently, well, just the other morning to be exact. I was floored with the news. Not that I wasn't happy for her, it's just that things have been going really fast for her and that I just hope she's making the right decision. She's literally leaping into the unknown and for the firs time in a long while I felt happy and sad at the same time for a dear dear friend. I am happy that she feels all her doubts that have been cropping up as of late are all pushed aside. Still, I also have some apprehensions with the breaking news she just shared but for obvious reasons and for not wanting to burst her bubble, I'd rather keep my thoughts to myself. Well, at least for now. Heck! She's engaged and as a good friend, I should just be happy for her. Haha.Well, I am happy for you girl if you ever get to read this. let me tell you that I love you and I will be right behind you in whatever life-altering decisions you are to make.

**As for other things, I have been thinking of having my hair cut really short, not for anything else but for the simple reason that I want to have a do that is not so hard to maintain. Apart from that, I had an amusing story that compelled me to at least contemplate on getting a shorter do. It was one of those lazy nights I was having and I found myself in my fave coffee shop. As I was waiting for my name to be called, a stranger approached me and placed something on my table. When I looked up, he was already walking away, with only his back as my last chance of catching a glimpse of him. He looked normal to me. He was in a crisp, powder blue long-sleeved polo and khaki pants. After a few moments of being perplexed, I stared down at the napkin lying on top of my table. There it was, scribbled in all its glory, the most creative pick-up line I've ever had in years (if it was a pick-up line). Haha...It said: Your hair screams of sex...Raaaawwwwrrrrrr!!! That jolted me back to my senses and gave me a kick far more than any caffeine fix could. In the end, I just laughed it off and found the entire thing amusing. He didn't even wait for my reaction and it gave me the feeling that he really just had to say it right at that very moment he felt compelled to say it. My hair that night was the same long hair I've been wearing the past six months. Well, with a li'l difference if I may add, since I had it styled where the layers are more obvious and my hair's natural wave was enhanced. And I asked my stylist to change my look just a bit and she gave me side-bangs. Hehe. That was probably it. Hah! Now, talk about being careful with what I wish for...