The AS Lounge: May 2009

That is the question I get asked most often these days. Kasi siguro, hindi na naman ako nararamdaman ng mga tao. Blame the proxy season!!! Hahaha! I really think that with the proxy season, you can never be too prepared.

Sabi nga ng isa kong officemate, "Kinausap lang kita Ana kasi feeling ko hologram ka lang jan eh.I just wanted to make sure you are really there." Hahaha!

Yesterday, I was wearing this really nice red tube dress to the office just to give me the summer vibe and with hopes that I will not be staying late at the office. Boy was I so wrong! I left the office at half past eleven in the evening. What scared me the most was the fact that I started feeling chest pains and for the first time, I really felt tired and it was not something I can simply brush off. After I wrapped everything up, I took very deep breaths and closed my eyes for a few minutes. I said, I need to get some coffee if I were to make it home in one piece. Unfortunately, the Starbucks I usually drive by was already closed so I had to settle with stuffing my mouth with gum and I played Missy Higgins loudly para makasabay ako and magising. Thank God it worked. I got to Sucat Road in no time, but it was there I encountered terrible traffic. Kaya lalo akong naniwala sa Murphy's Law:p hehe...

Today's a Sunday. I slept in really late and I was not even able to drive for Mama. Naawa daw sha sa akin kaya hinayaan nya ako matulog so she went by herself to do the groceries. Haaay! I turned on the TV para abutan yung Pacquiao-Hatton match (at this point though I already know Pacquiao won in Round 2 via TKO). I must say, I really like Manny's aura this time. Mukhang busilak talaga yung puso niya. Sana he retires while he is on top and SANA he does not venture into politics.

Maiba ako...kahapon yung araw na nakaramdam ako ng iba't ibang sensations. I consider it good kasi ibig sabihin buhay pa ako for one thing (hahaha!) and ibig sabihin din nun na kahit busy ako eh hindi pa ako manhid...

Let me recount the feelings/sensations that stood out yesterday:

excitement: because I got to wear the dress I bought online and I got to chat with Tarzan (who was sick all week)

brainfreeze: the office A/C plus haluhalo fiesta could spell disaster hehehe! I never felt that in a long while...nag chatter yung teeth ko habang naglalakad ako papuntang restroom...and dun ko narealize...ang lamig...

pain and exhaustion: my chestpains, headache, and stomach ache (enough said)

fear: when I realized I still had to drive myself home while feeling pain and exhaustion

joy and gratitude: when I pulled over in front of the garage knowing I know that with God's grace I made it safe

I guess with this post, what I wanted to say is life is still good no matter how difficult and challenging it may seem. The key is to know your center, and keep close to you the people and thoughts that keep you grounded and sane. I also try to come up with something I can look forward to each week...and I am really counting the days until the busy season would be over.

To cap this entry, here are pictures of things and people I was able to take pictures of in the last few weeks...

a rose and spotted carnation