in shock

Since I am cramming for my upcoming exam in December, I usually find myself awake during weird hours these days. It is during these times that I get to read messages in my blackberry that for some reason I feel drawn to respond to, well at least to some of them. This very early morning, I got a message from my boss flagged as high importance. I usually give him a call when I get to the office in the morning. This time was different. I just washed my face to at least jolt my senses more. Then I called him and we chit-chat for a bit. Then he relays the shocker...it is highly confidential so I still cannot really put in here what we just talked about. All I can say for now is, I feel a little lost and alone and I just needed to let these feelings out. I wanted to talk to someone but most of the people I can talk to are still sleeping. Some people who might be awake at this time, I am not sure I can talk to and I don't want to bother anymore. Oh my gosh!!! *sigh*

Right now, all I can do is pray, so that I can be centered, and take deep breaths...